Gifts and Talents

sometimes i get kinda down on myself because i dont write well. when i want to, i can have perfect spelling and perfect grammar, and perfect format... but the ideas dont flow. my thoughts dont make sense. i'm just not a writer.
yesterday while reading a blog by a girl 9 years my junior, i began to talk to God about this. she writes so profoundly. and so eloquently. and sometimes i wonder at her being only 15. she writes essays similar to what i had to read when i was in AP English III in high school. they are written so maturely and with so much passion, and i always am floored when i read them.
and so i whined to God "why cant i ever write like this?!  i cant even come up with something to say in a comment usually. 'wow' is about as profound as i get. i cant ever seem to get words to all the things going on in my head." and He laughed at me. (always fun when God starts laughing at you... its like "uhm God thats not funny to me!").   He said "i didnt call you to write now did i?" i looked down and said under my breath "well, no" He said "well then. why do you need to be able to do it like her?" i thought on it a moment and tried to let that sink in. He continued, "i have specific calls for you. she wont be able to do the things i've called you to do anywhere near as well as you. because i place the gifts in you that match your calling" now there is something to meditate.  this isnt the first time He's told me this. throughout my life its been one thing or another where i've compared myself to someone else (He said in the Bible not to do this!) and found myself lacking in some area.  but its because i wasnt called to that area. i dont need that gift. instead i need to be seeking the face of God for help in discovering and using all the gifts He DID give me. He hasnt left any of us without talent. and only He can make this flower of a person bloom. this tulip might not look like that daisy. but if all were daisies, wouldnt that make for a boring world? 1 Corinthians 12 addresses this- Paul says it in relation to the body- if all were an eye, where would the hearing be?  and so i see, if all were great writers, where would the scientists be? if all were writers, where would the musicians be? if all were writers, where would the counselors be? if all were writers, where would all the mechanics, janitors, cooks, mathematicians, teachers, athletes, etc be?  we all have purpose. but none of us have exactly the same purpose.
the comparisons stop now. its time to find my gift and run with it.